Why?

It always happen to me..N i loss my feeling to live..

Taking The Door Step..

Tggl bbrapa jam lg,hidup ak akn brubah..Sgala2ny akn brubah...Ak msh rs gugup dan gementar..Spt mnanti pngumuman kluarny result spm 09..

Ak amat mnyayangi kwn2 ak trutamany Fakhi,Ana,dan Nina..Mereka umpama tongkat yg mmbantu ak yg rapuh ini utk mncr ketenangan dan mkne hidup sbnr..Ak slalu brharap ikatan ini x akan runtuh wlupn dtelan waktu..Namun itu smua angan2..Tiada yg kekal dlm hidup ini..

"Sometimes we crawl..we dont see other's"

Ak trlalu mnghrpkn keadaan mnjd smakin baik dan kmbali spt biasa..Khidupan sprti dahulu kala..Namun itu smua hnya mimpi,mimpi mainan tidur yg kdgkala mnyeksa naluri seorg manusia...Namun ak xkn pnh mngalah..Krn msh ad kasih di sudut2 dunia ini..Akn akn mncrny..

I Just Want To Be Adored...

Sometimes,not all man can stand by himself..He needs frens or his love one so that he can be supported when he's down,or maybe act as their listner in any case or even be there whenever he needs them...It's almost impossible to see a man can live by himself..If we do see them,they might be gays or maybe menopause,or do not attract to women..

I just wanna be lived by my friends..I'm not talking all..Few may made me glad..Everytime i down,or stressed,or even sick,i need someone to make a chill out of me..I need someone to say "dont worry,i will always be on ur side" or "i will do whatever u said to me"...

Everytime,its just me saying that line..Sometimes it did hurt me..Whenever my friends in problems,i will be beside them n told them to cheer up..I just wanted to be adored like that..U know,a strong guy like me,also got some weakness..I need u to accompany me...

I work very hard to make sure my frens are happy n many times i forgot about my own feelings...That's why i always lost control n hurt some of my friends feelings n yet as a result,they will be like ignoring me for sometimes..That's always happened but now i dont mind..

I think the fantasy to make someone adored me has come to end.Nobody will say "goodnight" to me no more.Nobody will say "I love u baby","I need u with me",or even "ur my good listener,thanks my friens"...Yeah i'm losing those line...Maybe it's true,we cant get everythg that we want..We just need to earn it by legally or vice versa...

life is so unfair...

hoping to make a better world...

Bad Mood..

I'm not in a good mood now..so please,stay away from me..I will hurt u if u disturb me..

need a time out...for this time..it should be different..

Somethg That Should Be Done Earlier...

It came like a bliss that smashed all the windows n even damaging all the life support..As i walk for my big day,8th December 09,one by one problems came along with me as i dont know what to do now..

I got my powers back but it seems made me clueless in order to do or not to do..Everythg that i try ended with error..Fatality cant be avoided if no moves are taken to stop the diseases..It seems that all the neurone in my body have become cancerous cell level 1..It is very frightened me up n guess what,i dont have the confidence to go to the big day of mine..

At first,i thought everythg is ok n i'm ready to challenge myself but as the time passes through,i lost my soul slowly n sunk in the middle of the sea that i created myself.All the plans n the arrangement destroyed in such a windy night n yet,it made the situation hard and harder..For only i can do is sitting,n crying myself..No exotic to be as unusual planning that may cracked my heart to pieces...

The one thing that i regretted is putting 90% of ur heart n determination on somethg that so difficult to get the rewards.That's what life gambling said,ur soul n ur crap must be in the line for betting a good or bad stuffs..If the answer is no,it might be a deep conversation maybe stopped n i shall never return back to the turning point.As far as we do concern,crying is not the way to solve the integrations nor vector..U must earn for it...

"I'm looking at the down side of me where everybody passes by happily n they dont even placing any smile to me"

I will continue to find my way out n as far as i concern,that is the thing that i should be done earlier,perhaps...

sometimes its creepy when u know u dont have the chance..

its hope on ur faith..

perspectively...

Peringatan Pd Pembaca2 Hantu

Apsal?Ko xleh trima ak tulis sal korg?So sng..TEKAN BUTANG PANGKAH WANE MERAH KAT ATAS UH..Sng kn?Ko kate ak malukan ko?Yg ko trasa pehal?Ad ak dedahkn identiti ko ke buta?Ko dh buat taik..mmg la kau bau blk taik ko bodo..Ko kate ko malu ngn kwn2 ak?Mcm ar kwn2 ak kesah nk amik taw psl ko..

Ak nk ckp ckit pd bdk2 pnakut yg x brani nk tulis nme dy..Stkt nk tembak org blkg x pyhla weh..Kalu brani meh ar tulis nme ko bg smua kwn2 ak knl ko..X brani..Gaya je lebih..Pd stranger yg x knl ak langsung..Ko jgn nk keco2 wat hal kt sni..Nie bkn blog bpk ko..Ko nk bc,ko wat cara nk baca..Jg adab ko ble baca blog org..

Skali lg pd pmbaca2 hantu yg ak x pnh invite korg..Korg dtg x diundang,korg peG x dhlg..Ko rs ko nk bc,bc..kalu ko sakit ati,kisah pe ak..Ko x puas hati?PeG ngadu ngn mak ko la bodo..Shut ur bitchy mouth..I dont to hear any of ur nonsense bangsat..

sekian trima kasih..

Persediaan Meninggalkn Sekolah

3 subjek lagi dan kami akn pergi meninggalkn era persekolahan dlm hidup kami..Pembelajaran selama 11 thn d zaman prsekolahan akhirnya hampir tamat secara keseluruhannya.Ad yg mnanti saat ini,namun ad juga berat ingin melepaskan tapak dmana mereka brmain,bljr dan meneroka.Sesungguhnya zaman prsekolahan smmg indah..

Dlm masa yg tggl 10 hari lagi ini,prasaan debar dan dilema mle mrasuk diri.Adkh ak bnr2 brsedia utk mlangkah ke dunia baru?Adkh dunia baru itu smudah dunia yg ak lalui sblm ini?Apakah ak akn rasa gmbira dgn dunia baru itu?Satu demi satu prsoalan mlanda diri ak,diri rakan2ku yg lain.Bg yg dpt panggilan PLKN,sudah tntu prasaan mrk brcampur baur ketika ini.Namun hendak atau tidak,ms itu akn dlalui juga nanti..

Msh segar dlm ingatan bagaimana kali prtama ak mnjejakkn kaki ke bumi Seri Iskandar dmana ak mninggalkn sgala memori dr Tg Malim utk trus maju mmbawa diri yg ketika itu sedikit trluka..Pd mleny penerimaan diri ini utk mngadaptasi d dlm situasi br amat mnyesakkn nafas..Namun keramahan serta sikap jujur rkn2 di SMKSI,jurang antara pljr br dan lama dpt drapatkn dlm satu jangka masa yg amat singkat.Ak msh igt lagi bgimne ak mngharungi diri dlm prsekitaran baru.Mnyesuaikn diri dlm keadaan baru,rakan baru,struktur baru,guru baru dan subjek2 matapljrn yg br.Msh igt lg bagaimana ak brtarung brhabis-habisan utk memastikn diriku ini selesa brada dtmpt org.Alhamdulillah,keadaan janggal itu brjaya dhapuskn dlm waktu yg amat singkat..

Byk kngn ak xdpt lupekn ktika 2 thn brada d seri iskandar.Kngn brsama rakan2 plg byk mnyelubungi minda ku.Bagaimana ak jatuh dan bgn ketika zaman gelapku,bagaimana ak mngenal hati budi kwn2 ku,bagaimana ak mnjd smkin mtg dan brmcm2 lg.Ak byk mnimba ilmu baru,mncr pngalaman br yg x prnh ad dlm kotak simpanan memoriku ini.Tambahan pula,kehadiran rakan2 yg sntiasa mnghangatkn hari2 yg dingin,dan mngajarku ap itu bahagia yg sbnrny..Ak sntiasa mngingati saat2 manis,gelak ketawa kite brsama...

Memoriku ini xkn prnh lengkap tnpa kehadiran bidadari yg amat ku syg..Bidadari ini mnjd sumber inspirasi ak utk trus brjuang,maju dan mmbaiki kelemahan diri dan sekaligus mngubah personaliti diriku ini..Bidadari itu byk mmbr kebahagiaan pd diriku ini..Satu ungkapan yg bkl mmbawa kpd sinaran kebahagiaan ddunia...

Perjalanan kami ini sudah hampir ke penghujungnya..Sgala memori kngn pahit dan manis akn kami bw brsama kami shgga mati..Krn kenangan sbg seorg pljr adlh kngn yg plg manis.Kisah kami akan berhenti d sini.Kini sgalany hnya tggl kngn.Kngn Trindh yg tdk akn kami lpekn...

kita akan brpisah di sini..

sampai nanti kita brtemu lagi..

wlau ku hrp saat terhenti..

namun kini inginku nyatakan...

selamat tggl..

N There We Go Again..

Dh smggu cuti skola brlalu..Tp kngn lama msh lg x dpt ak lpekn..Ya kngn di skola..Peperiksaan SPM sdg brlangsung dan ya,soalanny2 agk susah tp ak sudh mlakukan yg trbaik..Tggl lg 3 paper dan kmudian plbgi prkara trbaru akn brlaku..

Ak sudah mrangka plbg rncgn br yg akn ak lkukan slps spm utk mnjdkn khidupan ak lbh brmakna..Ak hrp sgala yg ak rancang ak mnjd..Satu lg ak hrpkn 8 Dis ini bkl mmbawa tuah utk ak..

Dlm kegembiraan mnyambut cuti skola,x kurg jg dgn pkara2 yg kurg sng brlaku disekeliling kite.Salah faham sering brlaku dan ia mnyusahkn kite.N ble cuti skola niela,kite dpt taw mne kwn yg mngambil brt ke atas kite.Ak slalu mnghrpkn ak lebih dsygi oleh kwn2 ak..Ak inginkn mereka mngadore ak..X prlu rmi,hnya yg rpt shaja namun,smua kami mmpunyai prkara yg prlu didahulukn dulu.N itu mmbuatkn ak ksunyian dan akhirny tenggelam dlm kegelapan...

Ak dpt rs ak mudah jatuh dlm kegelapan skrg..Ak xtaw mcmne nk elakkan diri ak dr jatuh ke dlm uh...N akibatny agk buruk..Ak tkt..Hrp msh ad yg mnyayangi ak ini...

ak rindu pd korg...

Knp Ak benci bdk KHEJO Tg Malim...

Ini sebab2 knp ak benci bdk2 khejo.Dorg ske brlagak,ckp bsr n mmprkecilkn org lain trutama org yg lebih lemah dr mereka.Sbg cth hamba Allah yg ak censored kan nama dy krn ak xnk bkk aib dy.Mangkuk nie msj ak ari jumaat yg lps dgn nada bangga kate dy akn dpt 4A+ dlm SPM.Ak rs piss off dgn dy sbb dy x habis2 nk brlagak n bkn skali je ak kena.Dh byk kali dh trmsk trial aritu.Ak ad buktiny di dlm gmbr atas.Dh ar dy brlagak sombong ngn ak,kmudian mncarut x tntu psl.Ad ke ptt seorg kwn trgamak wat kwn dy mcm 2?Ko kate nk brgurau?Tlg ckit..Nk brgurau pn ad batasanny.Ad ke org blh trima gurau kasar ko?Dh ar korg kutuk ak time PMR.X cukup ngn 2 brlagak time kputusan trial ko x sbrapa 2.Blah ar..Kalu pndi sgt ko dh msk U la bodo..

Ini ar reason knp ak benci bdk2 tg malim.Ak mmg nk buang korg dr memori ak sial..Korg smua yg buat ak benci pd ko..Ak taw ar korg smua pndi.Duk skola bgs2.Gopengla Alam Shah la apla tp tlg ar peka sikit pd perasaan org.Brgurau ad hadny.Cbe kalu bsk spm ko lingkup ak gelakkn ko mcmne korg gelakkn ak time pmr dulu.Ms uh ko taw tggi rendahny langit uh.Korg kena igt,kpandaian yg korg ad uh sbnrny bkn korg pnya.Kalu tuhan nk tarik blk ble2 ms pn bole.Jgn igt ko dpt 10 A dlm spm ko blh brjaya dlm hidup ko.Kalu prangai ko mcm uh,xde spe akn prcaya pd ko.Ms uh cbe ar ko hidup dgn diri ko sndiri yg kononny pndi sgt uh..

Kpd sarah dan pu3,korg tgk ar sndiri rupe kwn2 ko.Ini sbbny ak benci bdk2 tg malim.Go to hell je sng.Jgn slhkn ak kalu ak wat langsi ble ak msj ngn korg nanti bangkai.Korg sndiri wat ak mcm uh dulu so peG jahanam ar ak nk baik blk mcm dulu.N jgn slhkn ak kalu ak jmpa korg kt luar ak x tgur korg lngsng.Pegi jahanam ar..

Menghargai Sekolah

Wat ms nie,ak akn update ap sj brkaitan dgn skola sbg mengingati bgaimana indh zaman prsekolahan yg naive..Baca dan comment kalu sudi..

Imbas Kembali...

Kalu korg bc blk post awl ak x brapa lame dulu,ak tlh mnceritakan brapa tktny ak bile nk abis skola..Ak tkt nk abis skola sbb xnk brpisah dgn kwn2..Dan pd hari nie,mrupakan hari dmana ak bkn lg pljr SMKSI..

Saat dan masa yg slama nie ak xnk lalui tlh pn ak lalui..Sgala kenangan yg ad amat manis tuk dilupakan..Stiap pngalaman manis ad juga trsulam kngn pahit namun kngn itu akn mnjd pngajaran dlm khidupan ku yg akan dtg..

Perasaan brcampur baur nie mnybbkn ak khilangan prasaan yg sedih mlampau.Mgkn krn ak trlalu mnghrpkn rkn2 ak utk sme2 mraikan hari trakhir prsekolahan namun mrk mmilih utk brada drumah..Itu pilihan mereka...

Tiada yg lbh indah brbanding zaman prsekolahan dmana kite msh lg bljr mngenai khdupan.Namun itu smua hnya tggl kngn..Krn ak prlu mnuju ke matlamat yg br : brjaya dlm hidupku...

trima kasih sekolah...

Last Day Skola 09

Hari nie ialah hari trakhir persekolahan 2009 dan yg trakhir wat diriku juga..Tp kesedihan yg ak rs x sehebat thn lps.Thn lps ak dpt rs titisan air mata bakal mngalir tp thn nie,hnya snyuman mnyambut peninggalan ku di sekolah ini.Mgkin krana periksa,dan rmi kwn x dtg hari ni..

Pemergian 2009 mnyaksikan byk prubahan pd sekolah 2010.Teacher Suma akan brpindah ke Convent,sesi 2010 akn brakhir pd pkul 2.45 ptg,praturan yg makin ketat dan sbgny..Nsb baik ak sudah abis skola..Tp msh hati ak pd skola..

Sesi brmaaf-maafan antara pngawas.Byk ak sentuh dlm sesi nie..Segala yg ak observe slama sthn nie akhirny ak luahkn ketika sesi td.Ak hrp sgala komentar2 ak mmberikn kesan yg positif dlm diri korg...ak bangga mnjd slh satu ahli dlm lembaga pengawas 2009..



Brgmbr ngn Cikgu Wan..Hmm..nk komen ap ek...xtau..cme nk cakap...Cikgu,bless me..haha

The day that she went away..I hope that is not the last time i saw her..She had been teaching me a lot of things n i hope she will be happy at the new school,Convent.Gud Luck teacher,and thanks for all ur knowledge...

It's the last day of my school era..No more school for me..Goodbye SMKSI..U gave me lots of memory...

thank you SMKSI..

Doa Yg Menjahanamkn Org?

Perangai ko x pnh brubah..ske mnjatuhkn maruah org..ko ske sumpah kturunan ko..ak sumpah..ko mati bsk ak xkn bc yassin tuk ko..ko mlaga2kn org..ak doakan ko dpt blsn tuhan satu hari nanti..

SPM

Here is it...It's coming..It's coming fast..Start u'r engine...

The Prefect's Evening..

Jamuan pengawas thn nie dilaksanakan serba sederhana..Xtahu dmanakh silapny,jamuan yg dhrp2kn utk mninggalkn memori trhebat utk smua org gagal mncapai misiny..Pun begitu,smua ajk trlibat telah menjayakan tugas masing2 dgn jayany..Syabas dan tahniah diucapkan...

Ak tiba dprkarangan skola lambat sbb mncr bunga utk Wanie..Acara dmulakan dgn ucapan ktua pngawas dan bla bla bla bla...

Sesi makan2 mnyambung aktiviti slps ucapan.Ms nie Zero Range mmbuat prsembahan..Gmbr ak tiada sbb ak x pntg dlm band nie..Haha mmg ar sbb mrk sgt dashat2 brbanding ak yg x lps ujian kelayakan..


Slps itu acara brgmbr dijlnkn...Gmbr2 yg sdia ada sggh kecik..X nmpk dgn jelas ahlinya...

Fivers yg byk mnjlnkn tugas spnjg thn membentuk sahsiah pljr2 dan membanteras gejala mslh disiplin.Tahniah fivers.(Yg xde dlm gmbr nie mkneny dy x wat keje.BAHAHAHA)


Aksi brani mati ak yg bakal dihadiahkn KFC oleh Nina..Ak mnyahut cbrn dy dgn mmbr skuntum bunga(plastik).Brbaloila jgk sbb dy hargainy..Confess?Tidak...SPM dulu...

Sepatutnya gmbr ini akn jd wonderful tp dirosakkn oleh mamat dblkg 2...Haish trus hilang mood2 ak dirosakkn oleh mereka2..Bedalla..X lulus SPM bkn slh ak(BAHAHAHA evil siak ak nie)

Ini Cikgu Syahirah.Ak panggil dy cikgu Vasqu sbb mke dy mcm member ak,si gigi silau,Vasqu.Kan best kalu Cikgu Sima pn de skali..Hmmmm...


Lps abis jamuan,ak trus ke Desa anta Fakhi.Singgah sbentar ke koperasi.Minum2,posing2,n man..Ak ngn nuar nmpk segak dlm baju kami..Huahuahua...

Gmbr nie yg ak rs gmbr trbaik kami utk arini..Ak agk kecewa sbb ap yg ak hrpkn,xde spe pduli.Haih...Nsb badan....Namun pape pn,lbh baik ad satu gmbr,dr xde lngsngkn?

Jamuan pngawas brakhir sesudah sesi fotografi.Namun ap yg ak kesalkn ialah hnya bbrp org guru sj yg turut hadir mraikan kami yg bkl mnamatkn zaman skola.Ini agk mngecewakan smua.Dmanakh silapny?Kte msh x mngetahui jwpnny.Adkh mrk tdk brpuas hati dgn kami?Mgkin ye..Adkh mereka jeles sbb kami batch yg TERBAIK..ITU SUDAH SEMESTINYA..haha..Walauapa pn yg brlaku,ajk2 tlh mnjlnkn tugas dgn jayany.Kami brharap sepeninggalanny kami dr arena skola mnengah ini akan dsmbg dgn delegasi,delegasi pngawas yg tlh kami didik,bimbing dan bentuk agr dpt mnjlnkn tugas dgn pnuh rs tanggungjwb dan brsungguh2 spt mne kami mnyambung delegasi senior2 kami trdahulu..Insyaallah,sgala ilmu yg disampaikn oleh senior2 kami tlh brjaya dsampaikn dgn smpurna kpd pengganti2 kami nanti...

"Kita berdiri di bwh payung yg sama,bekerjasama,bantu membantu antara satu sama lain.Tnpa muafakat,goyahny suatu institusi keluarga kerana kita dilahirkan utk brsama"

terima kasih sekolah..

1997-2008

Gangguan Mental

Pabila sijil panggilan maut menjelma,ak rs emosi ak makin x stabil..Ak rs mcm nk lompat bangunan.Kpala ak sakit dan trtekan..Ak inginkn belaian kau wahai bdk..Ko x kesian ke ak kt sni pikirkn ko tiap2 ari...Tlgla ak tertekan..Smua bnda ak trtekan...Ak xnk study...Ak xnk abis skola....Ak xnk exam...Ak just nk trbang tggi hgga ke awanan biru yg tnpa batasan..Ak xnk trperangkap dsini lg...Tlgla ak wahai tuhanku..Bantula ak..XDE SAPE LEH TLG AK KECUALI DIRI AK KAN?

Ok ak dh tng skrg...

It's Only For U...

I planned,i failed,i planned again n then i failed again.The circle of my life.I work so hard to achieve all my dreams.I want to be the best for myself.I really need to work so hard bcus i'm not a special one so miracle dont come to me easily.

I have once again failed in my quest.N yet i was too obsessed until i forgot all my friends n yes,i'm being sarcastic n it's not like me to be like that.I hate to show off to another people,i dont want to be mad at anybody,i dislike any arguments but its slowly change bcus of myself,really.I dont want to show my feelings,act i dont know how to.I think the right way is by expressing all my angryness n i tend to forget that some of my friends actually hurt by my statements..

I'm not a good friend.If i do,i will never do that to u.Sometimes in my blood is full with unsatisfaction n yet to be said full of revenge.I will avenge all the thngs that hurts me n people always said,revenge will make things worser.N that's why i lose frens like Aniss,Pikok n many more.Maybe i'm not suitable to be in anybody's life.Maybe i should mind my own bussiness n keep away from their life..

Yes i'm a bad friend.I'm appologize to all people that i hurt earlier.Dont worry,i will fade from ur life slowly.I will not distrupting or make ur life worser..I shall be gone...

Thanks for being my friends all the time...

but i'm not a good friend after all..

May ur life getting better when i'm not around...

Intrepetasi Membawa Diri

Dlm masa bbrp ari shj lg,pljr2 5 akn diserang bala yg mnentukn ms dpn mereka.Mereka prlu menang atau klh.Bg yg mng,khidupan mrk akn lbh bahagia ataupn gugur slamany di medan peperiksaan.Task yg bkn mudah...

Namun dlm ms yg singkat ini,brlaku plbg perang psikologi yg mampu melemahkn smgt mereka utk brprg.Walhal persediaan yg tlh dilakukan slama 2 thn hilang bgitu sahaja.Bnr kata2 cendikiawan,prkataan itu lbh berbisa dr sengatan.Adalah satu kesilapan andainy kita mmbiarkn emosi diserg dgn psikologi krn jelas kelihatan bhw ancaman psikologi trnyata melemahkn musuh2ny...

Antara catatan survival2 trdahulu,apabila tiba masany wabak SPM melanda,persediaan rapi prlulah dipersiapkn.Antara catatan2 yg dijumpai ialah,sblm brprg,bykkn2 brserah kpd tuhan,mnunaikn ibadah2 sunat dan tdk lpe juga restu ibubapa dan guru.Ad juga catatan mncatatkn bhw peperangan ini tdk mudah seperti disangka,namun dgn strategi dan latihan yg mantap dan brkesan,insyallah sgalany akn brjalan lancar...

Sekian sahaja laporan dr anggota Pertahanan Smksi 09.Harapan dan doa mengiringi kejayaan kekal abadi.Smoga peperangan ini bakal berakhir dgn kegembiraan kpd sluruh pnduduk SMKSI...

"sekiranya anda mmbaca mesej ini..

anda juga seorang ahli Pertahanan SPM 09"

Hyuga Gin,Anggota Pertahanan Spm 09..

Catatan Malik Al Kudut..

Muka Surat 98..

Terminator Salvation..

Ekspresi Maut...

Bole ke tahan kalu org lps geram pd kite?X ke mereka rs brdosa?Prlu ke memberi beban dan tekanan pd diri yg semakin hari semakin tertekan?Dhla kau x prnh mngambil tahu mnahu kebajikan diriku apatah lg emosi ku yg semakin x menentu.Ap yg ko taw,cme mnghamburkan makian da carutanmu itu sehingga mmbentuk titik2 noda dlm diriku..Tuhan mmberikn otak kepadamu,x bolehkh kau brfikir bagaimana menangani stress?Adkh dgn melepaskn kmarahan spastikmu itu mnjdkn kebaikan yg lebih nyata?Nyanyukkh manusia skrg ni?

Ak sentiasa brdiri di atas kaki sndiri.Kau taburkn duit dan harta namun ko x pnh cbe mnyelami jiwa dan prasaan ku ni.Terjebik dan terbilikny isi mataku yg selama ini mnahan titisan mutiara dr menghambur keluar mnyembah bumi?Mgapa ak dlyn spt smph,sdgkn kau puji insan yg tdk ad kena mngena dgn darahmu?Ak sering disakiti namun prnhkah ko peduli?Ap yg kau tahu,melepaskn geram sesuka hati dan bremosi spnjg hari...Dustany khidupan ini..

Ak sgt tertekan..Pabila mnuju ke sijil panggilan maut,ak rs ak juga brada di ambang maut.Ku cuba nyahkan prasaan yg tdk perlu namun bagaimana hndkku meluahkn rasa?Adkh ad yg sudi mndgr dengusan2ku?Ak rs tdk..Ak cbe mnyelami prasaan stiap insan namun sgalany hnya mimpi.Mimpi yg amat buruk.

Insan yg dicintai mmrlukn ruang utk brnafas.Dlm nafas duka menahan panahan asmara,luka di dada ditutup dgn liputan senyuman palsu.Kesedihan ini tiada lg kompromi.Di saat trjatuh dan trbongkang,menanti utk dinilai harga diri....

pucuk2 kesakitan mle mndtgkn resah..

sdgkn tiada ap dpt mnghalang..

prmaidani mnjd isu guguran diri..

I'm Afraid...

Since 2 days ago,things are getting better than before.Thanked to god,i'm smiling again.I still got the shine n the shine will always made my day..

I was in the right track n all the pain n pressure that burden me is getting lesser each day.With the presence of my buddies :Fakhi,Nina,Fadhli,Ana ,things will getting better n i'm so thankful.This is what i'm waiting for the whole time.

Forget about that now.I'm so worry about Nina.I dont know what happened to her i tried to contact her several time but none is returned.I got a bad feelings about this.Hopefully nothing will happen to her.I hope,she is ok...

Nina,if u'r reading this,please contact me.I'm so worrying about u.Tell me what happen.We try to fix it ok?

god,help her..

she needs u now..